New Year
Happy new year. I haven’t posted in a bit because I’ve been keeping myself busy, which honestly feels good. there’s been a lot going on, but in a steady way, not overwhelming
I’ve also started drawing again, slowly, and I’m really happy about that. it’s not full pieces yet, but it feels nice to want to draw again at all. things have been calmer overall, there were a few moments where I slipped up and talked to someone I probably shouldn’t have. it caused some tension and I got yelled at for it, which wasn’t great but the father and I talked afterward. he wasn’t trying to be cruel, just clear. he reminded me that going back to old people usually means going back to old patterns, even if it doesn’t feel like it at first, he just wants me to make sure I’m doing the right thing and not drifting back into the same situations that made everything worse before. I told him I understand, and I really am trying to be more careful about who I associate with. it’s not always easy, but I know he’s looking out for me
The snow started again, so i’ve been taking more walks. winter has always felt comforting to me, other than that, things have been good. I’ve been staying busy, helping out, keeping some structure in my days. drawing has been a part of that too, which I’m grateful for. it feels like a better way to start the year than how things used to be. We'll see.