learning
today was a good day. busy, but good. we’ve been getting things ready for christmas and making sure everything is in place for the upcoming masses. i think i’m more excited than i expected to be, especially for christmas mass. i’ve always liked it.
something i’ve been thinking about a lot is learning when to speak and when not to, not every thought needs to be shared and not every feeling needs to be explained right away. sometimes it’s better to listen first, to let things settle before reacting. i used to talk a lot when i was anxious, filling the silence because i didn’t know what else to do
lately i’ve been quieter and honestly it feels easier that way. less pressure to perform and less explaining. i’ve been told it’s noticeable, that i’m listening more, and that it’s a good thing. it felt nice to hear that, reassuring. i don’t always know if i’m doing things right, so knowing someone notices the effort means more than i expected. i’m starting to understand that speaking isn’t always about saying what’s on your mind, but about knowing when your words actually matter. when you’re asked. when it’s helpful. i’m still learning, but i think i’m getting better at it. for now, i’m just going to keep doing what i’m doing. getting ready for christmas, taking things one day at a time and trying to listen more than i speak.
"The one who has knowledge uses words with restraint, and whoever has understanding is even-tempered. Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues." Proverbs 17:27–28